20楼 —〉底楼

一天

我丢了

丢了树叶到阳台外

回头后

还见树叶

不停的被风吹着

伸手想拿回时

却碰也碰不到

好想跳出去

一起飞

一起随风而去

多么的自在啊

接着

心灵就扶着在叶上

想象着

飞翔

直到叶子

从20楼飘到平地上

才领悟

人还是须回到

脚踏实地

现实吧

依阳

呐喊幸福

我现在

超想尖叫

超生气

气自己

气家人

~

我有点恨

恨钱

因为钱

我失去了不少

失去了

家庭温暖

家爱

与家人的一切

我要钱

但这都是因为

日常生活中的需要

我并不爱钱！

~

我很你们
你们那些为钱奋斗的人
奋斗到
放弃
关心孩子的一切！

我有时在想

我们家真的没钱开饭吗

真的需要
每晚9-11点才吃晚餐

需要

每次在孩子面前都讲公事吗

真的
完全没机会与孩子对话吗
我又可以做什么
告诉你们吗
结果还不是一样
‘孩子，我要赚钱的啊！”
“我做了一整天的工很忙的啊！”
“你要体谅我吗”
我已经受够了！
我没体谅吗？
17年了
足足体谅17年了
谁来同情我

谁啊~

~~

有人问

你爱你家人吗
但

我总没办法

大声地说

我爱！

~

我超渴望

有其乐

那样的小家庭

每天过着幸福美满的生活

每天其乐

应该都渴望回家的那一刻吧

其乐
您真的要好好珍惜
因为实在太多人
羡慕你那幸福的
小家庭了
麻雀虽小但五脏俱全
有父母亲的爱
有姐弟间的爱
有家庭温暖
且幸福
有快乐

~
也许大家会觉得

家家都有本难念的经

如果是酱的话
我觉得

我家那本经
一定是最厚的一本

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

我以后绝对

不会不会不会

让我的下一代

有我如此的

遭遇

~

我真的不想

我以后照顾父母

是以

报答

他们所给过我钱

那么简单而已

~

我真

没爱

我的家

就算是

皇宫般的家

又如何

我还是喜欢

在树上那小小的鸟巢

不论

风吹雨打

我都有着

鸟爸鸟妈的温暖

~

工作之神

放过我

爸妈吧

我求你

救救我吧

电话

我拨了一通

拨不通的电话
我明知拨不通

但我还是硬要拨

我超犯奸的！

偶然相见之-----旧情人

补习的第二堂课---生物

老友与我

今天

缘分未尽

偶然相见

但他

没望一眼

悄悄地离去

而我

一心猜疑

他外面等候

但他

并不在外头

连忙追上的我

跑着

犹豫着

犹豫待会的话题

脚步先生

没有配合

大脑

话题未好

人已见到

终于明白

哑口无言的道理

只会

恶，恶，恶

不知下一句话是什么！

最后

随便聊聊收场

以前没出席小六聚会的我

得知老友想念我

但经过今天

我质疑了

我觉得他变了

也许是尴尬

也许是累了

他变得更冷淡

顿时也明白

要做朋友

难如登天

但

要忘老友

易如反掌

依阳的朋友

我怕有一天

你我不相望

你我不相让

你我都遗忘

遗忘我们

我们

过去的一切

答应我

答应我

无论在天涯海角的你

都不可忘了我

我

依阳

莫名其妙的小妹妹篇之（淑莹）

淑莹

我们一起去补习啦

补完后

要等他回后

我才敢回啦

竟然他不给我等

不给我陪

然后

一直叫我回

弄到我很愚

每个人以为

我要拐他一样

她MM

我好心好意

看他小小酱

不见了我不是很惨

结果没有交待就

甩掉我了

害我紧张到死

拼命的找

拼命的打电话

竟然不要接！

我慌了！

结果一直不敢离开

不敢放弃

不停的找

还好到最后

终于接我电话了

我骂了他

说我生气

他竟然说

“我都没有叫你等”

我不停的说我生气

他竟说

“不要完啦，你再玩我就生气了”

！！！！

很奇怪的人啊！！

玻璃，瓦片，瓷砖 之 《裂缝》篇

裂缝上的浆糊

无论浆糊放得如何多

无论是用什么牌子的浆糊

裂缝

始终看得见

只有另选新的

才能

忘记上次

打破玻璃的时候

bon odori 2009

这是我的第一次

喝醉酒

不知道为什么

会买到酒

命运吧。。。

只是

5%而已

整个bon odori 最深刻的印象是

我醉了

大家在大庭广众

玩true/dare

中的dare

每个人都以为我们疯了！

醉了的感受不好

但我们还是玩得很开心

那边的东西不好吃！

我现在还是很想吐

想吐回那些酒

‘' 3------血心vs甜品

冷淡后的第5天

我因为伤心而伤心

因为痛苦而痛苦

不知道是不是

因为伤心

所以有强烈的欲望

想吃甜品

结果买了3片

《秘密食谱》的蛋糕

但只吃了一片

边吃边看

天才匆匆匆

突然

娴，打来

问考试

她劝我不要再吃了

他还说

要拿减肥茶给我

不知为何

蛋糕都没有

像以前一样甜

没有很腻的感觉

我可以不停的吃

不停的吃

但我没有！

理智吧

刚煮完凉茶后

不小心

倒到自己的左手上

奇迹的

尽然不烫

尽然不疼

大概是

比不上我现在的

痛

不知为什么

匆匆匆

有让我发出笑声

但只是维持1秒

就停了

连我自己都觉得

笑得很勉强

不知道家人

有没有听出

我不知道现在的你

是如何

但愿

你幸福，快乐

请不要内疚或自责

不要不快乐

如果我

悲伤

会让你

难过

那我希望

我有一辈子

的欢乐

没有彩色字体2----心，我的

不知道要说什么，的我

我只好

从心出发

刚溜狗回来

突然想到你家的狗

不知何时

还有机会再见到它

想起很多

想起我们的第一次

虽然我认识你

只有几个月

但发生在我们身上的事

却多得很呢

不知道

你还有印象吗

是

我是很喜欢你

但

但我从不强逼

想跟你在一起

只是我的

一相情愿

我希望成为你的唯一，但你可以不是

我希望你，像我一样，这么爱你的爱我，但你可以不是

我希望我们的路，只有一条，但你可以不是

无论如何

我希望我们可以一起走完

在高二理爱的路

我不希望你用

那白开水的态度

做我们的结束

我不知道，不知道

可以做什么来挽回我们的友谊

我真希望，希望像

以前一样

的开心

如果我知道

今天的结局

我绝对不会做

当时的决定

我希望

你可以

装成什么事都没发生

但我知道

这只是在

自欺欺人

人往往会有不如意的事

就像我当时

所想要的理想结局

是和现实相反的

我没有恶意

我只想

关心你多一点

付出比他人多的

关心

我只是希望

你不要很残忍的

拒绝了

我的关心

我希望你可以给我

一次机会

做那

默默关心

你的，

唯一.........

全纯粹是我的

希望

你绝对有权

拒绝

那

我们可以从新吗？

不再有彩色字体的一篇1

我原本要写的东西

关于我炒的饭

你对我的冷淡

我们僵硬的对话

你出席我的一场球赛

..........

但这原本要说的东西都已不重要了

我从你的眼神

你的态度

你的不理不睬

你的冷淡

你和乐乐的悄悄话

我已知道

你懂了

部落格的一切

我

曾经问过人

我到底做对了吗

部落格的东西，对吗

万一你懂了

我该怎么办

昨天

我脑袋

像白纸一样

不知道

可以写什么

也不知道

我该想什么

所以

让你们久等了

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我,

不希望

让这个部落格

隔在我门之间

我知道

你一定会被吓到

但

但如果因为

部落格

而没办法

让我们像以前一样

那我就很后悔

后悔我写的一切

我虽然没办法

做你的唯一

但我也很希望

可以做你的知己

我不知道

你会不会再看我的部落格

但有些话

我一定要说

无论你听不听见

现在最想要的东西

依阳10大愿望

她将我存在她的心里

考好成绩

iPod Shuffle/Touch

新衣服

篮球鞋

新手机

驾车执照

搬新家

减肥

变帅

什么！

什么。什么？什么！

3种不同的什么

数学节

当我扮演

宗纬的洋葱时

‘最角落里的我，笑得多合群’

‘盘底的洋葱像我，永远是调味品’

‘偷偷的看着你，偷偷的隐藏着自己’

老师生气，老师骂

因为讲话

所以劝你

却。。

却被第3种什么！

来回报

我们的距离

二度遥远

而你也

不断离去。

想着，想着

发现自己

是你那爱吃的

洋葱

觉得自己

只是你生活的调味品

只有演着配角戏

坐在导演位子上，

你对我，宠爱时

让我演，杨贵妃

你对我，冷淡时

让我演，仆人

但更糟的是

我怕你

找到了我的替身

抢走了我的剧本....

结局

薏米与油条的结局

下场都和苹果一样

好友们被当成'水抱'

谢谢你们

不是你们的话

我的薏米油条

变得

更无意义

谢谢你们

我不想拿你们当替代品

但是。。。因为

没有人，没有人

比你们更会欣赏

薏米油条

比你们更会欣赏

内在的我

早上，考物理的

这次

没那么好运

可以梦到她

照样凌晨起床

突然想起

最近有点喉咙痛

心想大概她也是吧

煮了两小时的薏米

心想到校后

可以边吃油条

边喝薏米

谁知美禄同学登先一步.....

她知道，她知道

我有便当

但她尽没开口

一起享用

我二度期待

也二度失望

但我永放弃

我相信，我相信

总有一天

可以把幸福传到她手上

放进她心房...

坐位

我很讨厌现在的座位

不是因为韦翔

而是因为我看不到她

我无时无刻想她

却看不到

不知为何

很不自在

不公平的上帝

只让她有机会看我

但她珍惜过吗？

就算不是坐在她身旁

而是坐在看到她的角落

守候着她

我已感到心安

满足....

你不在

兴奋地期待，

失望地等待，

只差于一时。

凌晨读书时

为了让自己精神点

就休息下

到厨房切点水果

带到学校吃

兴奋的我，

到了学校，

见不到你，

就问其乐，

。。。。。

最后蜜糖苹果，

都不再蜜糖，

吃到的只有，

淡淡的失落。

当时真期望你会出现

一起分享我带来的甜蜜

考历国，今天

为了考好一切的科目

我都拼了

调了凌晨2点

但电话没把我叫醒

我凌晨3点时被惊醒

因为梦到

梦到

没有读书进考场

结果让你失望

最后我自责

然后就...

我拼命的读

历国都不放过

可是眼皮实在是不争气

但我不停的想你

想到你对我失望

我就很伤心

就这样的

打起精神来

拼了下去

你的名字

其乐

怪我叫错他的名字

湘仪

怪我叫错他的名字

我不知道为什么

每次叫女生时

都讲到你的名字去

大概是.....

不停的想你吧...

已不再放弃了的SPM

原本放弃SPM的我

已经不再放弃了

因为你

我不再放弃

因为我怕

你考好SPM后会离开

所以我......

我希望我们一起读书，读大学

一起走以后的路

也许你不喜欢我，但请不要告诉我

不然你给我的那把火

就会灭了

我怕自己又变成

失去烛光的蜡烛

失去意义....

我知道，我知道

自己在逃避

但你就当着给我一个假的希望吧

考跑步

7-7-2009

今天第九节考跑步

还好有你

有你为我打气，鼓励

我死撑着

结果破了我自己的纪录

无论在场多少人为我打气

但我只听到一把声音，你的

无论我跑得多遥远

你的打气声都可以传到我耳边

我好希望以后的路

都有你为我打气，

但我更希望以后的路

是我们一起跑的路，

打气声不再传到耳边

而是心里。

内外不同的我

内在和外在都不一样的toro(我）

我常常*100000觉得自己超自卑！！

我又肥又矮又丑

我从不敢正视别人的双眼

我不敢抬头挺胸

我总给人很自恋的一面

但像我这种人往往是最自卑的人

我自卑成绩比她差

我自卑没有比她身边的男生帅

我自卑没有比她身边的男生高

我自卑没有多才多艺

我自卑有着大渡腩

我自卑，我自卑

我自己的一切，我自卑

toro(多肉)的由来

最近的问题！

最近都有一些难解的问题：人（学生）总是要活在烦恼的世界吗？

烦恼排行榜

烦没人爱，没爱情，没拍拖，爱的人都不爱自己

烦功课还没交，还没做，报告多得很

烦仪容，头没梳，不够帅

回家还要洗米煮饭

烦考试，没停过的考试

烦成绩不好，没前途，还被妈唠叨，还要给脸色妈看

烦spm，考不好就留高三

烦她考得好，就没读高三

烦没机会和她一起读书，一起走以后的路。。。

Secrete

Finally reached the time tat I can tell u wad is the secrete adi.

Words tat i wrote on tat day:
Then we walk for shopping and buy Wind Boy de present (dun tell WindBoy about tis before his birthday 2April, if u wan to know wad is his present u can msn me). I hope Wind Boy will like it. HAHAHA!!!
Comment to readers: Sometimes I hate ppl who birthday on April. Cause every1 will forgot my birthday, even my family member also forgot my birthday last year... SAD... And i think Wind Boy de present will be 实用。I like to buy something 实用 to ppl cause it is 实用 than those things for decoration de...
Highlight it to see the secrete!!!

Finally, reach 2-4-2009. Actually we bought a pair of white boxer shorts to Windboy. So when we buying tat time, we still worrying whether Wind need to wear a belt for the shorts or not cause if u know Wind u know his size. Finally we get a S size, we ask for XS but the QUICK SILVER shop hav no more stock for XS ( extra small ).

Actually I just help choosing the shorts only, I dint shared with them. I already bought a gift for Wind adi. Although the gift is not expensive but i hope Wind will like it. Its a gift i bring back from TAIWAN related with S.H.E. de.

29-3-2009 永不忘的Marathon day!!!

Today is 2009中华行义跑. Chi Seng and i wake up bout 4 am. We go to meet 宝仪，then her mother sent CS and Wei Xiang and I to the padang merbuk. Before reached Padang Merbuk, we all go Mc D which near pudu bus station. And tats the first time i go eat breakfast at Mc D. I had a set of Pan Cake wif sausage ( i like the taste of the sausage ).

Because 芷扬(she get 15th place loh! ) want me to go pavilion after the 义跑，so i wear my nice shoes to 义跑but i dun know the padang is so damn muddy. Until my shoes became like tis (as the picture shown). I just wash my shoes before!!!

After the Marathon, i felt very proud of myself cause i had 尽心尽力的去参与. 我死而不愧!!!

After finish, we all go Masjid Jamik de LRT station then hav a ride to Hang Tuah, change Monorail then go to Raja Chulan then walk to pavilion...

We hav lunch at 旺角 and hav JCO. Then we walk for shopping. ( Whole day de picture is at Rocky and 雪莹 there, mayb their blog got the picture)

Funny thing is 芷扬's shoes had koyak and very dirty wif mud still wearing to Pavilion. 芷扬 and Rocky and 莹弟wash their shoes in the washroom until scold by cleaning de ppl cause dirty jor ppl de place. Haiz..........

We all de leg very tired now. 芷扬 teach me use warm water on the legs will be better. So i am trying now while witting tis blog...... I think i will no go out until finish mid year exam, cause I am tired going out jor.

Comment to readers: If u hav chance to go for Marathon, then u must try it. Cause its fun de loh. Secrete to my readers: I actually post something more ,but rocky dun let me post cause wan giv u all surprise so i will post it at the rite time... Patient oh...

钱不够用2

I just finish watching “正版”的<钱不够用2>from 'CS', i suddenly stunned. I hav a question to the导演, cause how he knew my life. Cause there is about 80% 内容same as wad happen in 2006. The movie makes me remember my AH MA. She pass away when i am in form2. Tat time she always sick then my dad and his 2 older brothers sent her to the best private hospital. Then every night we all have to go to visit her. Before tat 3 brothers of them also meeting and discuss who want to take care of her. Luckily my auntie take care then 3 bro's pun giv some many 2 her (auntie). Luckily we no send AH MA to the 老人院. In the end Ah Ma die at auntie house, actually we all fell very sudden y she will die cause doc let her bac home. In the end my dad told us she got lung cancer and is end period adi. only 3 bro's of them knew onli, they din tell any1. The end i 申请丧假when 林秀芝give science test de day. Aiya really a long story to go....

Comment to readers: PLZ always say 'I LOVE YOU' to ppl u love everyday, if not u will be 后悔cause u din say tat in front of him/her.

THINGS TAT is miss from AH MA:
。maggie mee tat she cook
。rice tat she 畏me
。mee hun tat she put tau ge tat i hate in pass
。西瓜霜tat she help me to 肤
。story about world war 2 tat she told me
。豆酱水和豆腐花
。面线when i got my水痘
。lipas tat she put inside a bottle
。拍背when sleeping
。night toilet tat she tell me to go
。...........................................................................................................(many2 more)
。most important is the last kiss tat she gave me in front of my friends (ming fong and Ding Liang)

Comment again to my readers: How long u had forgot wad ur AH MA or AH GONG had done for u all ??????

Those ppl tat i wan to say TQ when i having vacation in TAiWAN

This is the group photo. Dun blame bout not clear. Cause is a stranger took for us de.

Mostly i wan to TQ to person below:


We took tis photo at the 便所餐厅.

Caryln & stanley looi is not couple.

Caryln is just our 领队.

Stanley girl friend is 霞霞姐姐

Right: is 霞霞姐姐

Left: 嘉嘉from Sarawak

Ah LING

TQ u all, u all hav gav me the wonderfull time at TAIWAN. Dun forgot wad we did when 2-3 oclock morning. What we c, and wad we talk..... If stanley and 霞 are free, then come back to ur 母校chkl to visit me .........

BO SHONG typing full-stops !!!!

Wa, today is holiday but i still need to giv ppl scold like hell.....

Today, i go to school to test science camp de games. Early morning every things is going very OK de. Then finish all game and after lunch, every1 sit together to discuss whole camp de time table. Then the Teacher Yang scold all of us, cause many problem had occur such as attitude...... Then the Jia Cheng still wan scold us after the teacher scold us( terutamanya ME ) ..... Then every1 very*10 down... Zhong hong, Iuning, Hui Yi also cried..... SAD (T.T) ....

Actually today i think can giv ppl 赞扬de loh cause everything i had finish de loh... I type finish my report just left HeXuan de report then i can finish jor.... The HeXuan say he will finish today de loh then giv me loh, conclusion is he havnt finish ... Then every1 just asyik scold me no do workkkkkk.............. BO SHONG....... ( I am very bo shong when i type the full-stops now) ....... I even bring my pen drive saved my report think can finish at school de loh!!!! Totally sad today...

I know i did wrong before so wad ... Means he can scold us in front every1 meh!!! Still need me sry to Iuning ...... ! Actually I wan say 了de loh, But Jia Cheng attitude like force me to say make me no say sry to them..... ( CHI SENG: 尊严是生人最后的底线）If ppl force u say sry u will 心甘情愿的say oh not ????!@#!#@$#$@$%%^#~

Words to readers: Do not force ppl to say sry, tis wil make ppl 不爽cause u are hurting ppl 自尊！！！

Go To TaiWan PaRT 1

Aiya... I felt so sry sry cause so late onli post up my things. I felt sry to my readers ...

Tat day when whole world ppl saying "GONG XI FA CAI" de time i go TAIWAN.....

My mum and I reach the KLIA airport after finish Mc and check in de time we took photo.
My family and I took the eco class site ( cause no $$ ) , so u can c the China airline's seat is no 'sempit'. Then i saw the pepsi cola in the airplane is so rare in Malysia because there is written' 百事可乐'.


This is TAIWAN 槟榔，it taste bitter, and it will makes u fell warmer just like u drink alcohol. After u chew it ur saliva will become red in colour. U can buy it everywhere in Taiwan. Some sellers are wearing sexy clothes called: 槟榔西施。But some seller is untie. Its not exp. But really taste bad, But Taiwan ppl say the perpose eating tis is for warmer the body and mostly is for 壮阳!!!

Here is the place i relax in 温泉, called 麒麟峰温泉。There got cold and hot de, got naked de, got milky de. The rules is u need to wear shower cap. And the wash room at there is Japenese type, means u need to naked in public while taking bath and change clothers.....so '排写'while i taking my bath with others....But the place really makes u very*10 relax..

After taking a bath after 温泉, u can eat 温泉蛋(egg boiled in 温泉water)，eat tis kind of egg also got procedure. Firstly u need to knock the pole of the egg on the table. Then u need to make a hole on it just same as the pic. Then u need to add some salt into the egg. Then u need to use a straw to stur the egg yoke and the egg white. End, then u only can suck the egg. It taste same as the egg in Malaysia. But the egg shell colour is different. In M is 米colour, in T is 白colour.

This is the lake which locate on top of the mountain( Forgot the name ). The place is very*10 windy. So relax while the wind pass by. And i think the view is nice 2.
Tis is the "7 dragon ..." inside a temple. Look carefully u can c 7 dragon inside the picture......

You think tis is a statue??? Then u are wrong!! Tis is a real humman. He just act as a moving statue. He earning money. He is located at the front door of temple. Without opening his eyes he can c ppl, when ppl moving closer to him he will change the pose, if u go nearer to take photo with him, he will hug u. He din ask for $ directly, he just put a box on floor to earn his $.

Tis is the fried mushroom i bought after visiting the temple. Tis is very special to me cause i had nv ate before. On the surface got some peper powder. Tis is very exp, cause there is hard to find such a huge mushroom.
And tis is wild pork, its exp 2 cause wild pork is taste better than the normal pork we ate.

Tis is a peocork tat i saw in the bird park. Before we reach the Birdpark the guide had told us if the peo 开屏(open its tail) means we are the lucky 1 cause the peo seldom do tat only if its mating season. Tat day almost all peo open thier tails and show us. 场面壮观!!!

What will u think when u saw A BIRD??? When i walk in a Taiwan's street, I saw tis advertisment. There is written "在大的鸟都装得下" and there is an owl in a cage and the cage is in the jean. Is very funny when i saw tis when i walking along the street. I Laugh loudly....... HAHAHA

Memories That almost Forgotten

Above are some pic tat took when 1st day reach Kuala Selangor. Those are wad my friend and i did and many things nice. At the end my cam have no more battery so i just got these. Other pic took by my friend is post up at science camp blog.

After the whole week exam, finally i got free time to post new things. I just read my science camp blog. Then i found out 1 thing, actually is many2 things! I finally know tat i had forgotten many bout science camp de memories. I saw some pics at the blog and i remember tat day we go 考察and how me hav fun at kuala selangor and i remember there is still many pics(pic above) at my computer tat din post up to giv my readers. The main thing is i suddenly wake up, the blog make me get bac my heart , feel and ... in the camp. This few days Iuning and wind boy always scold me and wan me to pass up the report for 团康 but hexuan and I havent finish yet. And we both find out tat we cant communicate, we faile to success the report. Conclusion is we both no heart anymore for the camp. not even he and me but ming juan and others also same. After finish reading the blog i felt a bit 惭愧, and i find out tat all good memories had forgotten by time and exam and busy.

My comment to readers : Dun let 'busy' steal all ur time, take out some time to watch back , watch pass. Then u will knew tat u have left out something behind.